{SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.}

Friday, 11 January 2008

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mind is in a blank.

i recalled a friend telling me on msn lately that when you are attached,your girl friends will slowly disappear.

is it true?

i dont really want to believe but i have to face the fact that they are kind of disappearing.

its hard to balance friendship and relationship.why cant both things blend with each other? i've always thought that i am mentally prepared for any changes to happen. i always thought that i have a mature mindset to do this and that.

however

i am not.

when things suddenly changed,i panic and start going into circles.i become indecisive and lost my natural compass to think logically.i suddenly realise that i cant keep things the same way as before,i get sensitive when they dont reply to my words.i keep thinking that they detest me,because i am no longer the 'single' me.i belong to another party.

i am a oschrid,who only knows how to run far away whenever they sense something is not right.

i kept quiet.but i try not to show that i am hurt.because i dont wish anyone to pity nor do i want to be wallow in self-pity and let the voice in my head snigger at me that i am such a loser,even simple things as friendship you can make it a mess

i am also a promise breaker.i break promise to the one i love and i blame on my indecisiveness.i promised that i will be home early to talk on the phone.hah...in the end the stupid indecisiveness hurts everyone.thank you so much.

9:38 am;

N {LA VOISINE}